Disappointment... Wonder if my frens had ever considered abt my feelings at times? Or have they always thought dat I'm such a joyful person dat i do not mind any negligence from anyone at all? When I uncaring towards my frens in the past, they were unhappy. When I started to learn to be tactful of their feelings & learn how care, I realized I was the one who was unhappy. Where does the line really lies? If you want me to be selfish, I can't do it especially after all these yrs being used to sparing tots for pple. But neither can I do it when I had to always put others before myself.

Sometimes I'm bloody confused. Like today, encounted three situations whereby I was trying to talk to my frens but they're simply too pre-occupied with their own stuffs dat they cant spare a few mins for me, neither could they give me a split sec of eye contact. Is it just so hard? Or is it becuz I'm not worth it?

After dat I was feeling realli down. Not the 1st time its happening, so shld I jus immune myself? Despised me for being such an attention seeker for all I care. Somehow, I jus dun wanna to be nice anymore. Some pple all along may just treat u as an idiot, rather than a fren. You just nvr know.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy@7/24/2007 09:17:00 PM