I nvr blog 1 day straight after another but some issues just triggered this entry & some ?? within me all these while. Just received a belated Hppy Bday sms and I dun recall who the sender was until later. When I needed someone, he was not there. When I needed a shoulder to rest on, he was not there. When I needed a listening ear, he was also not there. Some might say I shld b glad dat he still rembs my bday, but what has it gotta do with me?!!! I've long deleted this person's friendster acc & his blog link so y does he bothered to re-appear again after all this while?? Was really hoping the friendship could last. However after all those that had happened, it was just my wishful hope. I've built up a strong sense of trust for him dat had to be given up in the end. Can someone uds how painful dat was??


Dun uds myself sometimes, though I tot I do. Is it due to the lack of self-confidence that I badly need friendship & pple to show concern to me? Haiz..My friend said dat I m a lonely person who pays too much attention to the pple around me. At times, being so sensitive to others' feelings just makes me hide myself more.

Those who take the initiative r always at the lower hand. Maybe dats' y I am always neglected...ignored...forgotten..and a LOSER.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy@5/17/2006 09:39:00 PM